Haven't felt much like blogging lately.
I know I shouldn't be, but I've been feeling lonely.
With Jamie on mandatory overtime, I LITERALLY don't see him Monday through Friday, except for around an hour a day, about 2 days a week.
I hate it. I spend every evening either at work or at home alone, until I can't keep my eyes open on the couch.
I haven't seen Amanda or Emily since school let out, which is hard.
I hadn't realized how much I had grown to depend on them.
My old friends I never see anymore.
Everyone has more important things going on in their lives.
I have such a hard time getting to know someone on a deep level.
It's not easy for me to open up, and show people my true self,
and everyone that I've ever been able to get close to (other than Jamie) leave soon after.
It never fails.
Jamie asked me one time "Why do we chase away friends?"
He was only half joking.
As soon as we get really excited about someone being in our lives, they are gone.
I know I should stay positive, and think about all of the people who love and support me.
But right now, I just want someone to talk to,
and to see my husband.
Everyone deserves to be in a funk sometimes, right?
Buh.
I give up on trying to be positive for a little while.
♥
sorry you are sad :(
ReplyDeletei really believe things will get better once you are out of school. then you will have people that you can actually see on a fairly regular basis... this semester it seems it's been school & work. i think once you are out, you'll find you have more time to put into these relationships.
i do feel ya... amber & i had a talk about this the other day... life gets lonely sometimes. well i miss, love, and am praying for you :)
Awe, I would give you a big hug if I could... I can somewhat relate. I think everyone has these moments at sometime or another whether they are willing to admit it or not, but I definitely do :-) I hope things get better with Christmas around the corner...praying for you <3
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